Pizza Anyone?

Oh how I’d love to have pizza. Not just one slice. The entire pizza. As you know. Daddy Dearest got pizza last night. It was so tempting. But I didn’t give in. today I had something for orchestra (which is why I couldn’t attend S's very cool tea party.. sorry) where basically we performed for the math department at our school. About 60 people. They gave us pizza as a thank you. “Sarah, why aren’t you eating?” Oh I already ate. I’ll just have some diet coke. Thanks though. “Ok, if you’re sure..” yep. Oh how I wanted that pizza so bad. I gave my friend Tony my pizza. He was high. He had at least 10 pieces. No joke. That’s more calories than I’ve had all week…

Driving home from the concert I was pulling into my neighborhood. I hear two honks. I look over. It’s Eddie. I get out of the turning lane and follow him. He has to drop off some money then he will call me. I hate it that he deals. He calls me shortly after. “What are you doing?” I’m at home. What are you doing? “Not sure yet. I might go to Brickhouse with some guys. ” Okay well call me after. “Wanna smoke real quick?” No thanks, maybe later tonight. Hell yes I would love to smoke. Only I might pass out if I do. I’ve hardly eaten today. I don’t want to pass out though, because then you will know something is wrong, I will spill my guts out to you about my ED and then you will never talk to me again. Or you will tell someone and I will end up in an insane asylum. “You’re gonna fall asleep by the time I’m done.” No I won’t, I promise.

I talked to my friend Mike about spring break yesterday. We skyped for over 4 hours. It was crazy. I think we might just go to the Bahamas. Maybe Cancun. Or we might stay in the U.S. and just rent a lake or beach house out for the week. One problem. He’s a guy. He likes me. A lot. We’re friends.. but I have trust issues. Last time I stayed with a guy friend, he raped me. So honestly I don’t see this happening. Especially if it’s just the two of us. He’s a great guy, but things can go really wrong really fast. I feel bad saying that I would go, because originally I didn’t see a problem with it. But now I’m taking that back. He’s gonna be so sad. He keeps texting me about how excited he is. Sorry.
Intake:

B: Turkey Slices (28)
L: Tuna Salad (194)
D: Chicken stir-fry w/ broccoli and 1 slice of cheese (242)

Burned off: (191)
Net Cals: (464)
Net Carbs: 9.8

Stay Strong ~XX Sarah