Daddy Dearest.

Sorry I didn’t post last night. It was a pretty bad night. I’ve been trying to have as little carbs as possible idk if you’ve noticed that or not. But basically I had a mini carb binge yesterday.. Fml. I had some pizza and like a cup of cereal. I felt disgusting and wouldn’t let myself tell you guys because I was too embarrassed. I didn’t let myself go to my friend’s party either. I don’t need the extra cals from alcohol anyways. Today I’m back on track though. Thankfully, because usually I can binge for days, weeks, months recently. But I think I’ve FINALLY got the right mind set back. I know what I want and I know what I need to do to get there. Thank the lord!

Today I got in a fight with my dad. It all started from something small. I’m pretty sure he was telling me the chores I needed to do this weekend – Which are the same every. Single. Weekend. – so I got mad and told him I know and to leave me alone. Then we started bickering. Then yelling. Then screaming at each other. He grabbed my arms and pushed me against the garage door. I managed to get away to my room and I tried to close the door, terrified of what might happen. I called him an ass hole and told him to never touch me again. He told me to move out. This is the second time he’s told me to do this. Once when I was 15? And I actually left for a few weeks. I’m not leaving this time though. Why would i? I’m never home anyways I’m always at work or school or just sleeping at home so it would be pointless to get my own place.

Intake so far: 2 eggs, some green peppers and onions and a little ground beef: net carbs (carbs minus fiber) about 2.5 calories about 300. I also had that dieters tea I talked about earlier. And some green raspberry tea. Yum. That's pretty much all I plan on eating today. Mabey something small later. Idk.

Well I have to go to that Kelsey girl’s house at noon. And I plan on working out later because of last night’s fuck up. I’ll post later most likely.

Stay strong.

XX Sarah